May 2009
1 post
wow! i havent been on here in forever. im dying to read what you all have wrote from like 3 weeks ago lol. not much to say here besides yay schools over tomorrow! and im excited that im ungrounded now. nothings changed. at all. i still like a boy who keeps trying to show me his body and he still keeps saying i know she loves me :D
April 2009
27 posts
i just saw my first snake of the year. though it was smushed flat into the ground from a vehicle, it was still a snake. and it did creep me out. its just reminding me of the long road ahead when i will have to confront my biggest fear. THEY’RE BACK!!! thats its, im moving to a big city :D
Ha, Simon Cowell just said "steller" :P God, dumb...
(via thatsallison)
omg!!! u thought that was funny too??? i almost cried from laughing so hard and my parents didnt get it. though if i do remember correctly, he said “swag” but maybe u were laughing at something different
its so awkward to find out that your loves younger brother has a crush on your younger sister and he happened to ask her out earlier today. her reply “i have to think about it”. translation: yes, but i dont want to sound eager….. my thoughts: wtf kayla? is this your sick and twisted way of forcing me to get over tyler?
“love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to...”
– Robert Heinlein
i need to know what your outlook is on me as “your potential girlfriend again, possibly” is. this whole no attention and then too much attention gives me uncomfortable moodswings. especially when i talk to you like we’re still together ; ) when you sat next to me on the bus again i was so tempted to grab your hand : / …. im going to make you realize how much you...
and even tho i didnt expect the “her” to be me, it still hurts knowing that its not. dont know what i was thinking when i thought i might have a chance with you again. i dont deserve someone like you.
you know what makes me laugh? is when i send u a comment like “oh i c”, one u could end the conversation with and u always respond back with something to keep the convo alive. i find it cute and nice that someone cares enough to talk to me when im miserably bored. especially since tyler never answers any of the question i ask him.
i saw you with girls, lots of them. they were all over you and whatnot trying to be obnoxious to get you to notice them. it really upset me. i know its not to much to ask for you to pay attention to me every once and a while. u depress me for stupid reasons and i want to know where we stand so i can keep trying or give up on this pathetic idea of any chance i might have.
so my pops sees me checking out his prom pictures and goes “you still miss him dont you?” wow dad your so smart! obviously you havent checked my myspace history in like 4 months. thanks man.
funny story
so im on the bus and kennedy goes “ooh tyler! camryn wants to kiss you!” and then lenny goes “so does kirstie!” and i go “oh lenny im gonna slit your throat!”
to be quite honest i didnt find it very funny, did you?
“Real loss is only possible when you love something more than you love yourself.”
– Good Will Hunting (via gatekeeper) (via quote-book)
i want to know how prom went for you, who you danced with, and if u got back together with your old girlfriend. this all has been haunting me since last week.
“The only room with a view is a room with you in it.”
– 96,000 from In The Heights (via lyricallysomething) (via quote-book)
your giving me majorly uncalled for mood swings because your moody. all i want is for you to be happy. with or without me. thats all. i feel as though youre controlling my ability to be happy because when ur sad im sad and when your giggly im a fricken nutcase. as much as i hate you for making me need you so much, i cant stop thinking about what we could be and what we did have.
and im trying so hard to get inside your head but i just cant reach you.
“Don’t you know about first love? You may grow out of it but you don’t get over...”
– The Bad and the Beautiful (via filmquotes) (via quote-book)
Your love will run and hide, and leave me on my own. The true one, will fall, so hard baby, and thats why this hurts. I always thought that you would be the one, but baby now just give me a chance. I always thought that you would be the one, but baby just give me a chance. This is the last chance you get what you want, and ill never be the one to turn on you, and i get what i want, and i said, ill...
thatsallison:
screamatmewithlove:
today on the bus you were singing the plain white t’s “1,2,3,4” and i couldnt breathe.
awhh kirst! well, i wish that you know who would sing that in front of me, but on the other hand i dont want to hear him try haha. :) love you kirstie lynn! and dont worry im working on a dyabolical plan to figure some stuff out for ya ;)
what is this dyabolical plan you...
today on the bus you were singing the plain white t’s “1,2,3,4” and i couldnt breathe.
thatsallison:
screamatmewithlove:
you make me crazy out of my mind jealous…. i hope you’re doing it on purpose and enjoying it too.
who is making you crazy out of your mind jealous and enjoying it too? lol
obviously his name is tyler. the one that i think has way too many friends that are girls.
you make me crazy out of my mind jealous…. i hope you’re doing it on purpose and enjoying it too.
i get to spend almost a full 7 or so hours with you today. you dont know how crazy excited i am for this. even tho we may only talk a few times or maybe not at all, or maybe we’ll talk alot, just seeing your face all adorable and happy and singing will make my weekend absolutely perfect.
people asking me who the next person is that i’ll date on my bus are ridiculous. im not a whore or...
i finally did it. i built up the courage to break up with you and knowing you feel the same way made it so much easier. we can just be friends now and im really ok with that.
you told me something that you promised cody you wouldnt tell me. i think its great that we are talking about why i want to break up with him (leaving out the minor detail that i still love you) and how you think its wonderful that i want to go to battle of the bands with your band on friday. it kills me to want to know how you feel about me right now if u even feel anything at all. good or bad.
you broke up with your girlfriend. that is step one in my infamous plan. and the fact that you were talking to me about it like it had no affect on me made me burst into laughter that i had to keep inside the whole time. i also loved how you were reminiscing with me about certain aspects of my life.
i wish you could look inside my heart. then you’d understand just how beautiful you really are. you were the most wonderful thing thats ever happened to me and i dont want you to go away. i need you. you made me strong. you made me happier than anyone will ever be able to. you said all the right things and even all the wrong ones made me giggle. you were there for me and took me to your...
March 2009
10 posts
howthingsare:
I just keep telling myself that you don’t even love her anymore.
haha true tha t.
dont forget
Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me
Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I’m left to forget
About us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can’t forget it
So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you...
breaking up with someone is hard to do but i’ve got to do it. i have to do it.
you’ve started talking to me now. not much but your finally acknowledging me, and its messing with my head. even though you have a girlfriend right now i think we are still going to get back together, someday, hopefully. the relationship im in right now will never be as great as the one i had with you. none of them will be. YOU were meant for me and i hate to think that while im dating one...
help!!
im in a dilema. part of me thinks i should break up with you because we dont “connect” like we should and i think we are just great friends. plus i still spend half my time reminiscing over things from 3 months ago and i cant stop. but another part of me doesnt think i’ve given you much of a chance yet and knows that i couldnt bring myself to break up with you for the fact that i...
something i’ve wanted to do my entire life is staring me right in the face at the moment but i cant jump on that musical bandwagon when the boy who ripped my heart out a couple months ago helped get the bandwagon going :/
and its been a long time,
since i’ve been on here. i feel like i havent seen a computer in years when its only been two weeks. alot has happened that is real crazy fer sure. I finally got to see two of my best friends this past friday which was something i will treasure for a while.
Also,
im going to dow next year and im scared that i’ll miss my best friends too much and turn into a total wreck so that nobody...
“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a...”
– Leo Buscaglia (via gatekeeper) (via quote-book)
162. PEOPLE THAT GET NEW BOY/GIRLFRIENDS IN A WEEK...
lolcassidy:
(via dearworldwtf)
agreed! and if its you that got dumped and a week later the dumper finds a new person its like you didnt even matter to them. its so great.
you told me that the next time we hung out you’d ask me to be your girlfriend. why cant you just do it now? you know i’ll say yes and everyone thinks we’d be the cutest thing ever. i think so too because i can be my 100% self around you.
February 2009
23 posts
and lately,
i turn on my phone to find a text message from you telling me that your mad at me because i lied to you or because i wasnt there for you to talk to for the hour you have to sit on the bus. from day one of this school year you’ve been that extra something that got me through my days even while i was with tyler. you always said the most randomest things and put a smile on my face no matter how...
woot! i’ve never been so excited to sit in front of this computer before. i’ve been grounded from it for two weeks now and until i get my report card i can be on here as much as i want. after that, i’m grounded for another two weeks for not getting all a’s… it sucks. but yay for a life for a few days that doesnt involve me sitting in my room reading a book i’ve...
no flower. no card. no talk. no nothing. but why doesnt this make me love you any less?
i keep thinking that tomorrow im going to get into second hour and there will be a flower on my desk that says “kirst, i’ve only been avoiding you lately because i wanted to surprise you and tell you that i still love you and i miss you and i thought this would be the best way to do it. SURPRISE!” or something like that. but i know better than to get my hopes up that high…....
today you told my best pal codly that you wouldnt go back out with me because we never talked or hung out. but didnt i talk to only u alll the time and didnt we hang out every chance we could? i texted u that question 3 hours ago and im still waiting for your reply love.
my goal for this week: to quit looking at ur gosh darn profile every second of every day
my other goal for this week and so on: to never give up on you unless you give me a reason to ( ex. you get a girlfriend) <—- im praying that wont happen. unless its me :/ :D
wow,
thatsallison:
i think i just posted about 12million blogs on this thing during this biology class.
i think i might like him a lil bit more than i like that other kid who is in this biology class.
i think there are like 10 minutes till the end of this biology class.
if u like him, go for it… especially since he likes you.
thatsallison:
I’m totally confused with myself right now. Do I like this guy, or this guy? It’s too conjumbled, and I need to figure out who I really truly like cause if I dont then I’m just gonna be a big mess. Lol. So yeah, uhm…Kirstie-you know the guys. Rachel-you know one. And yeah, I need helpppp :|
honestly i think that the one who acts like they care about you the most is the one you...
you honestly dont know how badly i want to run up to you and have you hold me in your arms again for one last time…. cuz i’d make it last forever. lol i just wish you’d grow up and talk to me.
i gave allison my song about you. she read it, she liked it, so i told her to give it to you to read. u didnt even read the whole thing before giving it back to her. its either that your sick of anything that has to do with me or u want to make things better your just not sure how. so that pissed me off because its the best i’ve wrote so far. but then on the bus u sat in the seat across from...
bendtosquares:
I want to wake up tomorrow and read a text message from you that says, “Just kidding, I’ve been a real dick lately. I still love you, duh.” But everyone knows that’s not happening. Tomorrow I’ll go to school, suffer through three hours of you, go home and hate everything and everyone around me. I’m allowing you to control my mood and mind again, it’s not fun. Yet I can’t stop.
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